Is anybody there? (An open letter to my brain)

Is anybody there?

Is anybody going to read this?

I started writing this post in my head last night during a panic about the  old bank account for the GU Shakespeare Society  at 5 in the morning, but I feel that with everything going on right now, it’s been a long time coming.

I’m clinging onto OK-ness. Physically healthy, academically getting there and yet mentally my brain feels like it is holding the worst of all grudges against me. And so I think it’s fair to say that I’m struggling to keep my head above water. Just a bit.

Below are just a few of the lovely conversations that we’ve had together over the last few weeks.

‘You’re never going to succeed getting your degree.’ 

Thanks brain, I’m already coming to the end of my first semester of 4th year, watch me.

‘You’re going to fail your dissertation and you’re never going to hand it in on time. You can’t write a good academic essay anyway. ‘ 

Really? We’re really going there? I’ve got about 6k of words down already dear brain; I need 4k to get to word count and there’s the 10% leeway. And please don’t start about academic essays. I don’t want to hear it.

You’re useless. You’re the sibling who’s never, ever going to amount to anything. Best give up.’ 

That’s unfair. Really quite unfair. For the love of everything brain, can’t you see that we’re all different? We’re not supposed to be clones of each other.

Your faith’s crumbling. You just call yourself a Christian.’

That’s enough. I’ve been busy, far too busy to attend student group and I do try, so please don’t hold that against me. My faith is being explored in other ways until January (magical, blessed January with no looming deadlines!) comes and I can properly immerse myself into Student Group.

Your problems are invalid. You are invalid.’ 

I’m trying to be OK, trying to get there slowly, but it’s taking time. Please try and be patient with me and know that opening up is hard, but I’ll try and be more honest with where I’m at mentally. One of the main problems is that my main point of social interaction at the moment is in the library where everyone is stressed, so if I pass you off with a breezy ‘I”m fine,’ or ‘I’m OK… just’, know that I’m very probably not and it’s just because the ‘everyone’s in the same boat and don’t try and stick your head above the parapet’ mantra has been stamped into me and trying to unlearn it is something that is taking time.


’til death do us part’: The Greatest Marriage of All Time

’til death do us part’: The Greatest Marriage of All Time

Treaty of the Union The Treaty that started the greatest marriage of all time.

Marriage can be a difficult thing. Often in a marriage, nobody quite detests their other half more than the spouse that is forced to spend the rest of their life with them! I remember complaining to my Grandmother that my Grandfather would shout and swear, being the army man he was, far too often. I could not imagine any sane woman tolerating it, but her response to me was indeed one that would not make sense until a few years later. She told me that despite all of the flaws in her chosen spouse, she knew she loved him. Despite his incessant shouting, she remarked that when he is gone, the silence would be much more deafening and tragic. I realised that love is not an airy-fairy, fluffy feeling that you get in your stomach. Nor is it that moment…

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Arts Preview: Titanic: The Musical

Arts Preview: Titanic: The Musical

The rehearsal room is abuzz with a piano warming up and cast members changing into rehearsal skirts in preparation for one of the final rehearsals for the Cecilian Society’s production of Titanic: The Musical, which opens next week. Amongst the busyness and excitement in anticipation of this ambitious production, qmunicate grab a moment to talk to Director, Laura Campbell and Musical Director, Andrew McDivitt, to find out more about the show.

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Album Review – COLLABRO – Stars


Collabro have had little time to prepare for this album after winning Britain’s Got Talent (BGT) earlier this year, although I appreciate they have the might of Simon Cowell and Syco Music behind them. All the tracks are from the musical theatre, apart from Secrets (written by American Pop/Rock band One Republic) and All Of Me (John Legend) and they have put in all the necessary hard work to make this a debut album one they can be proud of. Their trade mark harmonies,that wowed us on BGT, are all there and you cannot fault their voices.


Nobody had heard of Richard Hadfield, Jamie Lambert, Matt Pagan, Michael Auger and Thomas J Redgrave aka Collabro before they won BGT. They are five very talented, very young guys; the the youngest members are only 21. They are passionate about what they do and they are all Leading Man material for the…

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A Positive Case for the United Kingdom

An incredibly well thought out post with brilliant points on a subject so close to everyone’s hearts at the moment- roll on the 18th!




In memory of all those who lost their lives in the Great War of 1914-18, we will remember them

Drinking Under the Moon

Remember me, when I am gone.

When life has lost another one.

Let me slip beneath the fires of hell,

Unnoticed by an unwelcome knell.

Let me not be scarred by war

As all I know that went before.

Youth becomes me even now,

As I take to the stage, a final bow.

When the emptiness of death

Has taken all but one last breath.

I will not think of starry skies

Or waste good air on wordless cries.

I shall leave it all instead,

To this tiny flower, stained with red.

The poppy grows all caked in mud,

It thrives in rubble, dirt and blood.

It stands alone as if a flag,

Waving out this bloodied rag.

Declaring loud for all to see,

a silent, iridescent plea

That asks if you remember me.

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10 Great Quotations from Writers about Life

Wonderful post- I especially loved Edith Wharton and George R.R Martin- brilliant choice of quotes and authors!
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Interesting Literature

You ask ‘What is life?’ That is the same as asking ‘What is a carrot?’ A carrot is a carrot and we know nothing more. – Anton Chekhov

Live all you can – it’s a mistake not to. It doesn’t so much matter what you do in particular, so long as you have your life. – Henry James

Life is always a tightrope or a feather bed. Give me the tightrope. – Edith Wharton

Life is a progress from want to want, not from enjoyment to enjoyment. – Samuel Johnson

Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the fall. – F. Scott Fitzgerald


In real life, the hardest aspect of the battle between good and evil is determining which is which. – George R. R. Martin

Life shrinks or expands according to one’s courage. – Anaïs Nin

To do the useful thing, to say the courageous thing…

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